What can I say, but it’s so hard. Hard to get out of bed. Hard to go to sleep. Hard to get through the night. What can I say, but it’s so hard.
“You got to live,
You got to love,
You got to be somebody,
You got to shove,
But it’s hard,
It’s really hard,
Some times I feel
like going down…”
Rebuilding: Jack works on a new edit room
I am trying to rebuild. I am trying to redefine myself. I am trying to reinvent myself. I am trying to get back on my feet. Hard to be with new people. Harder still to be with people I knew. How do people see me now? How do I see myself? What can I say, but it’s so hard.
“You got to eat,
You got to drink,
You got to feel something,
You got to worry,
It’s so hard,
It’s really hard,
Some times I feel
like going down…”
I live each day with great uncertainty. Anything can happen. My glass is either half full or half empty. That depends on the day, the hour of the day and the minute of the hour. Uncertainty can bring troubling thoughts and hardship – but it can also bring wonderful feelings and accomplishment.
“But when it’s good,
It’s oh so good,
And when I hold you
in my arms baby,
Some times I feel
like going down…”
Rebuilding: Joel Dovev
I have been off antidepressants for more than two years. Today I looked at the old pill bottle and said maybe its time for that bit of help. But is that really what I want? I thought of my last blog post, the last quote from Sean Stephenson said “On your darkest days remember what it feels like to have sunshine on your face.” So I walked out of my house as the sun was setting and walked the 3.5 miles around Prospect Park. The sun glowed golden on the lake and the air was breezy and nice. Spring will soon be here.
“You got to run,
You got to hide,
You got to keep your
woman satisfied,
But it’s so hard,
It’s really hard,
Some times I feel
like going down.”
-John Lennon
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